I tried to find a good picture, or at least something good enough to represent what I'm gonna post today. But somehow I can't find it. And that just made me realize that 'farewell' is not something you can really describe. A situation with the undescribable athmosphere which pushes your eyes to start watering (-.-)

Humm it's not what I'm really afraid of in my life *or so I think*. My mother once or twice said to me that "You have to be ready to lose something right at the moment you found it. You have to be ready to say a person goodbye just right at the moment you two met each other". But I guess talking is just a lot more easier than doing it.

Tomorrow will be the last day I'll see some of my friends. And that really bugged me too much. I should've been immune to this kind of thing, ryt? Lyk I've gone through this thing for hundred times. 

And along with that, I'll gone through a one week training of something I can't tell you. Humm I bet it is going to be so difficult as hell.

Another thing to be discussed ya...

Hey, I don't know what you guys are talking behind my back and everything. I don't know what's all the fussing about. I don't know what is it with all the drama. All I want to say is just that IT'S SADLY NOT AS DRAMATIC AS WHAT YOU GUYS HAVE MADE UP ALL THIS LONG!!! I know the news is lyk everywhere and idk! It's just... can't you please just take care of your own effin business? So much with the drama alright? IT'S TOO MUCH! IT'S ENOUGH! Damn I'd rather not being talked about at all. Sigh.. guys believe me it's not the real fact. Just quit fantasizing and enter reality for our own's sake!

And guys, I believe I'll miss this school so much later when we graduate. High School year is unlike any other.

It won't hit you when you wake up for your last first day of school. It won't hit you as you walk into the locker for the first time as an official student. It won't hit you when you got dismissed unappropriately by all those security guards. It won't hit you as you got betrayed by your very own teachers. It won't hit you as you enter the floor to perform your best for the last time. It won't hit you as you fill out the countless universities applications. It won't hit you as you write that generic essay letter that you try to use for all your applications. It won't hit you as your old friends return for a reunion and give you all their advice. It won't hit you as you celebrate New Year's with the friends you have known since childhood. It won't hit you when you fight against that damned authority and cry your eyes out!

You won't feel it when you are having the time of your life at your last 1 month break. You don't realize it during Sabbatical skip day, when everyone, no matter what group you are in, has a 'picnic'. When May finally comes around and you realize that it is your last Prom (farewell party), but you don't really feel it when you are there having the time of your life.

You begin to realize it at Graduation when you look around and realize that you will never see half of these people again. You will begin to see it more over MOS week in universities when everyone is getting their classmates, class schedules, and going to orientation.

It still hasn't fully hit you when you are sitting in your room packing up the past 18 years of your life, laughing with your best friend about all the stupid stuff you've done. You might feel it the morning you leave for university as that it is the last time you will see your room, your parents, and your best friend for like 3 months or more. It will finally hit you when you are sitting in your dorm room with a perfect stranger, that you have to live with for the next year.

So now I realize and regret. Please, Please, PLEASE make every moment of your High School year count, you only get to do it once. University will be a lot of fun, but in the meantime, jump at every opportunity you get to do anything that you have ever wanted to do. Spend as much time with friends as possible, for it will NOT be long until you meet new people and inevitably grow apart.

~V~

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