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THEY SAY LOVE IS JUST LIKE MAGIC. BUT MAGIC IS JUST AN ILLUSION RYT?
sing.that.song
A LITTLE TOO NOT OVER YOU
by David Archuleta
It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're
not here now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're
not here now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you, ooh.
me.myself.and.i
a little sneak peek about me :P
Hi, my name is Valencia but for short, you can call me
Valen. Valen loves
twilight saga, her fellow friends since kindergarten until high school,
and her
books.
Valen is absolute fan of
stephanie meyer, who by the way is gifted by an enormous power to create such a good story without makes me bored at all to read her novel which is about 500 pages thick.
Valen currently studies in
Binus High School and is in 11 grade.
Valen won't tell you her class so if you don't know, too bad for you.
For Someone I'd Lie in Real Life :P
When one day you think
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
And my old faded blue jeans
When one day you think
I hope you think of me
S I X T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am 16 years old, aren't i?
ONE When I was in elementary school, I liked IPS the least, which is a kind of eufimism because 'hate' is a strong word. ARGHH!!
TWO My first cellphone is Nokia 2100 (yay!) and now I don't even know where it is...poor little cellphone...
THREE I am sooooo in ♥ with Jason Mraz!
FOUR My favorite colour is pink (like you guys don't know yet..)
FIVE I've moved 4 times since I was born.
SIX I've been changing schools for 4 times too, since I first went to school.
SEVEN I used to believe with Santa Claus thingies x)
EIGHT I want to be an internist (or a pediatrics) after finishing university.
NINE The best movie I've ever watched so far is P.S. I Love You (thanks Adel, for recommending this one beautiful movie)
TEN Oh yeah, I LOVED lollipop, choco vanilla Chupa Chups to be precise. And when I say LOVED, I mean it.
ELEVEN On some points in my life, I missed school so bad. That's what you called IRONIC.
TWELVE Honestly, I don't know what else to write.
THIRTEEN I ALWAYS have problem with my hair. I don't know why, but I do ALWAYS feel like it bothers me!
FOURTEEN I wake up 5.40 every morning. Well, surely except Saturday and Sunday and any other lovely holiday.
FIFTEEN The worst holiday is Lebaran holiday because I can NOT go on vacation and I have to clean my house all by myself for about 2 weeks and that's BAD.
SIXTEEN Humm.. I envy my parents for their genius brain and secretly wonder why can't they inherited it to me (-.-)
ASS-ignments
dear my fellow teachers, come check THESE out..:'(
basically just stuff we, Serpong Binusian, need to do, like homework and projects.
1. BI : Field Trip Report (30/3)
So guys, do PRAY for me..! ^_^
dead bored
3:39 PM - Saturday, March 28, 2009
Well I don't know if I was starting to be crazy or have just started to lose my brain. But during this one week holiday, all I could do on my daily schedule were these:
- Wake up at 9 am or even later.
- Take a shower
- Eat breakfast
- Go online
- Eat lunch
- Watch movie streaming on the internet
- Take a nap
- Wake up at 7 pm
- Eat dinner
- Go online
- Sleep at 10 pm
- And at the meantime : texting
WHAT-A-LIFE!
That pic above was totally not me. But I'm as depressed as her, though. Now I am wondering about a small little thing I shouldn't have in the first place. But I just can't stand to hold it back forever. I need to spill it out of my system. You know what? What is actually the sense of waiting if we don't know what's left to wait anymore? Why should we wait for it when we know it won't come? Am I in love with him or am I addicted to the pain I always feel when I'm in a one-sided-love?
You know what? You always say you hate it when I got hurt, you always say you hate to see me cry. So all of these times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
It is so sad. No matter what you do, or say, or talk behind my back, if you come running back to me when you need me ever again I'll always be there. No questions were asked at all. Sad isn't it? Because maybe for me, you're a person who is so amazing that I can always forget how bad you've hurt me before.
I'm so sorry I shouldn't have talked like that behind your back. But please, can't you understand me? How bad you've been treating me for so long? Now I'm not even sure if I ♥ You or not. Just as much as I doubt if You ♥ Me or not. I'm just not sure.
I read Adit's post in his blog about an article called "Love Is Not Always Has Been Formed Flowers" and I cried. Those tears falling was not for those dreamy articles they wrote. Those tears falling was not for the intense romance they made up. Those tears falling was for my fault. I realize that was my fault, too. I questioned his love for me just because he didn't show it. I know that was kinda unfair. But I'm always mesmerized every time I thought he would disappoint me which turned out he didn't. When I thought he did nothing, he was doing something FOR ME. Silently.
It's just... I'm tired to always have to pretend that I know what he's been thinking about me. I'm DESPERATE to know the truth inside that head! I can't keep on guessing his feeling. I can't keep on gambling. I can't keep on expecting. But I can and I will keep learning to trust him.
I want to be there when you're worn out, when you gave up, when you are overwhelmed, when YOU need ME. Until when are you going to hide it away? Don't be afraid to show your face to me and put off that awful little mask you always put on in front of me. Just say it and I'll come. Am I giving enough? What makes you so afraid to come close? You know that I want you say it. I need you say it.
I know, I'm so so so so so sorry... I love you, always have, always will :)
~V~
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